Hi (:
My name is Chair and I rock.
Seventeen candles on the 28th September '09. I ♥ cocktails, cocaine, and clubbing.

PARAMORE
is the bomb.
you know you love me
xoxo


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thanks for the day. at 8:59 PM

javier. :D

went out with buddy, edward and buddy's cousin javier(?). met them at 1 today, went to ntuc to check out the food list. walk around and they bought some finger food, then sit at some places to eat. buddy's cousin is so cute! initially , he dont really care about me but after sometime hanging out with me. he sticks to me more than sticking to buddy. and buddy keep saying him got me dont want him already. then later carry javier and he fell asleep, so carry him then took 165 to sheng siong. went back, everyone seems so heartwarming. (: i miss working there, talk to them for sometime and on the same time looking for cheaper food. and of course, we found couples of cheap stuffs and also booked some foods. and buddy and i took turns to carry javier while he's sleeping, then later awhile he woke up . sort of blur blur, and avoided me. i was like haha kids always like that , but buddy explain to him then he remember. and awhile, he sticks to me again. so cute of him . (: then they bought foods again, and find one place to sit, later buddy gotta bring javian home so walk home with them and edward left cause he taking different direction bus. was walking, and the public gave us those kind of looks. both buddy and i knew what they were thinking, and we'll like LOL-ing luhs. anyway javier did some cute stuffs, and i think he watch too much of drama. so buddy, you should know what to do already. went 7-11 top up cards, and bought gummies. the 3 of us was enjoying the gummies luhs, walk about then keep eating. javian even asked me to go his house play toy with him, so sweet of him. (: then later reached the bus stop, waited for bus 55 awhile, arrives then bid goodbye to them. i was telling buddy, next time must bring his cousin out again and i shall bring him to some places to play. (: anyway thanks buddy and edward for the day esp buddy. i know you had try your best cheering me up, but as you know once i got emotional, its pretty hard for me to get over. but still thanks, i enjoyed myself today. tomorrow going to edward house with buddy, doing the things and first time buddy said he going to cook. surprising, and maybe i shall look forward to it ?

i dont know what im feeling either, those suffocating feelings. i wonder why am i feeling this, i my self dont even know what's going wrong. negative thoughts runs through my mind, im trying so hard to think the other way but it seems so hard. the dream i had ytd, it seems scary. i even teared , waking up knowing tears flowing down my cheeks. what's exactly wrong with me , i hate myself behaving in this state.