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these empty feelings at 2:27 AM













this is going to be a long post cause it's packed with thursday,friday and saturday post.
got back my result, and i'm satisfied with it. plus cca, i've got L1R4 15 so w/o was 18. i pass english and maths !! i cried the moment i saw the result slip, cause both were my weakest sub among all. i'm like having surge of butterflies in my stomach before taking the result. then when it was my turn, i walked toward mr singh as he was holding onto the slip, then he said "eileen, you only can go .." and he stumbled ! i totally freak out, thinking that it's something bad however he continued with this, " poly, congratulation" at that moment, i was relieved and overjoy ?! nothing could describe my feeling at that moment, maybe the happiest day of my life. and i was surprised that i score a B3 for humanities cause i thought i'd only get a c or whatever, got a1 for chinese and i was superbly happy. but i flunk dnt, which i dont give a damn to it luhs cause the courses i going does not need it. anyway girlfriends did well too, and no regrets from all of us. promise to treat them dinner if i pass my english which is at least a c5 and above, and i did. so treat girlfriend to swensen which they chose to go, ate, had lots of funs and the entire meals cost me 150$. but it doesnt matter so long as we enjoy. and then work as usual for me after this. sorry to weijie brother that i can't make it for junsheng birthday gathering due to work. and i miss jad so much luhs, i hardly meet up with them, i miss those girls. anyway work is pretty fun and hectic nowadays. like for ah xiong brother, everytime he walk pass, i sure will twist to him for no reason. then it turns out to be a habit for us to do that, he will like walk pass suddenly then will twist his hand and of course kills my boredom too as it makes me laugh.then today ahbing brother asked me, " xiaomei, who told you i'm married one?!" i was like laughing hell lots, cause i told him not only 1 person told me that can ? then ahbing brother gave a omfg face, so now i also confuse whether he is married or not. today, everything ended so late, counter closed at 11 luhs. so everything was dragged, then when everything was done saw Stephanie jie msg say something wrong with the JAE application, was shocked cause i haven apply yet. so faster pack my stuff and then went off quickly then suddenly, JL brother called me, and i nearly slip cause of my bad-fiction shoe. and they laughed ! damn, so embarrassing can. later dad fetch, and homed. shower, then call sy to help me with my jae application cause i left that book at my gramps . sorry sister, call you in such late hours. chose all business courses, hopefully can get in the one i desire. anyway it's late, and i'm working tomorrow. ciaos people guess i'm dyeing my hair again, to red instead of violet-red.

for you girls:
the thoughts of girlfriend going to different school saddens me. we're going separate ways, different poly for everyone of us. but i'm sure our bonds are more that what we ever thought, because the bond we had, make us stay stronger. we've got love and devotion that ties our soul together even though we hardly meet up now, girlfriend still remember our shirt wrote? "westandasone" that's right and we'll always be, you girls have piece up my life with wondrous moments, and i want more in future instead of becoming a memories for me to reminisce. i love you girls, my five lovely girlfriends. (:


result is my phobia at 6:59 PM

result on 24/01/07, 2pm. and it's freaking me out ! guess i'd be having butterflies in my stomach on that day. alright, all the best for the o level students including me, god bless.


devotion . at 11:59 PM

cityharvest church on 25th (:31th of 2007; we had our countdown together.1st of 2008; we spent it together and had lots of unglam photos too. (:

okays, i got to say i have to control my spending. because i have already spent near 400bucks within 6 days, it's outrageous cause i hardly spent my money in this way. what's more, it's all on clothing and accessories. never mind, i got to just control myself in whatever way that can stop me from spending money in such way. went raffles city, and i've eyed on much clothings every shop i went in, but i tried to control myself not to buy and i success. however, i saw this handbag in Dorothy Perkins, it's so nice and the price was rather alright, 43 bucks. yet, i didnt buy it cause i thought keep walking round can find me something nicer but never. i shall buy it next time i go, and i bought a guess wallet for my cousin, she told me she like it very much. (: anyway i'm going to get myself a guess wallet next week too, and most probably the handbag too. okays, i know it sounds contradicting for me to buy all these when i said i'm gonna control my spending, but just for this only. walk around, and got some clothes too. left raffles city around 7.30, and train to tanah merah. attended cousin 21th birthday party which she held at her condo's function room . stay there for quite awhile, around 10 left the place cause mum they all wanted to go home already. sent aunt home, then reach home around 1045. shower then com till now, finally i've got all the pictures i wanted it long ago. guess i better go get some sleep, work tomorrow.

my head's full of thought, the thoughts of you. and i'm distracted so easy, thinking of what to do. so unsure, so unfamiliar. am i wrong to think that something could happen?

once again, boy i miss you..



i held it so high up when that's such a big disappointment at 2:14 AM

okay this is going to be a friday post because it's already past midnight and going 3am. apparently, we are going to meet on saturday. because both of us ain't free on either morning or afternoon so we postpone the date. although i sound as usual, deep down i'm really upset. it's been so long since we last met, i yearn to see your face everyday. i really dont want to hold anymore hopes between us when i know it's impossible for us again, we've been apart for too long . yet i still have this feeling ..

i wanna say iloveyou to you again, not for once but forever.
dont avoid my love alright ?



life could never get any better without you. at 2:51 AM

changed of skin, working as usual for me but it's getting better cause i'm getting along with most of the people there. i know it's weird for me to say this, but i really miss schooling. life without schooling is boring and speaking of schooling reminds me of result which i'm going to get it soon ? failing english is what i'm afraid of, getting bad result is my phobia for now . and i could say i'm like having nightmare for nights of getting good/bad result everyday i sleep. asking me not to think too much is difficult because it's impossible for me not to do so, nevertheless what i can do now is, pray to god every night and hope he would answer my prayer with my sincerity and love towards him . anyway this coming wednesday, will be going out with girlfriends for our shopping spree, and i'm sure we girls are going to shop till drop . it's been sometimes since i last updated my wardrobe, and i just gotten my pay not long ago so no worries of not having enough money to spend. cousin 21th birthday party this coming saturday too, and i'm still wondering what to buy for her. and recently i kept having this ambivalent feeling which made me feel so uneasy. in the first place, i shouldnt have such a high hope too, when i know everything was just only a prank to you. i feel so like a dumb but yet i cant control myself falling for you. boy, you're just so addictive and you make me think of you every single moment of my life. i miss you. anyway it's going 4, time to sleep before i wake up late tomorrow again for work. ciaos


desolate at 3:14 AM

i'm working tomorrow and i'm still here early in the morning, 3+. practically my week just goes on like that, work, home, sleep, wake up and work. it's just like a daily routine for me, and i hardly go out with my friends can . working is tiring, but i'm getting my 3 weeks pay tomorrow so it's worth doing it. and monday is my off day, so it's time to go out with girlfriend and we shall have lots of funs ! (: and connie, when are you going to online ? i want to the photos and i wanna post it too ! i better go get some sleep before i cant wake up tomorrow for work. somehow things are going apart, i guess?
i seriously hate being the middle person because whatever i said, will only causes both party more problem and not just helping them.

i keep my true thoughts locked beside my hearts black box and it wont be found, it wont survive through the smoke or the wreckage.
imissyou.


the arrival of 2008 at 1:59 AM

happy new year, people ! (:
this year, spent my countdown with my 5 lovely girlfriends as i used to countdown with him for the past two years . nevertheless, is the past and things gotta move on. did some dumb wishes or i can say my new year resolution ? hahs, it superbly dumb but i still hope it'll come true. :DDD and jad won the dtc title ! three cheers for jad ! :DDD go fight win ! hahs, went down to find kor they all at ps and i seriously miss the company lots. hahs, on the same time i feel weird too, maybe too long never meet up and everyone of us become so stranger. however we're still jad people even though we're not working together already. (: and thanks kor accompany me through out the whole trip, haha you're the best ! :D sorry for not able to join you guys for the countdown at marinabay though i feel like going so but never mind we will get the chance to go out again since dtc is over . then went sy house around 5 plus, slack there and waited for everyone . then later yanan, kelvin and peixin came too. hahs, everyone was like so hungry and so we rushed Michelle and she took cab here. had some sumptuous dinner, thanks to sy and her mum . (: after that, mahjong with apple, michelle and yanan. consider myself quite an over all winner, won some money too. :D then went downstair , play with streamer, sparkers and candles, okay sound like mooncake festival . hahs, around 11plus went up to catch the show. chit chat, then drank vodka mixed . i think that one is vodka luhs, after that drank sparkling juice. hahs, then countdown together with the show, was like so high. after that, go round hugging people and photo taking time . hahs, then we left the place first cause sy whole family like sleeping already, hahs. sat at the void deck and kept taking photo, i meant funny photos ? hahs then connie's dad came and fetch us home . thanks connie dad. (: reach home around 1.30, shower and com. ohwell, i'm hell tired, turning in soon cause got to work tomorrow when practically everyone no need to. photos shall upload soon when i received it, hahs. ciaos.

i miss you i miss you i miss you, when i said it three times, means i really meant it.